Birthing a New Me!
The Divine Feminine
I wasn't intending to write a post today, but I just did myself an oracle reading and it resonated so much I felt it needed sharing.
I used The Shaman Dream Oracle deck by Alberto Villoldo and Colette Baron-Read. Whilst shuffling the cards I focused on my career aspirations and what will be next for me.
The two cards that jumped out were Cosmic Womb -The Divine Feminine and Gathering Around-The Power of Community, both of which are extremely relevant to me right now.
The Cosmic Womb card talks of rebirth and transformation, taking our power back, expressing ourselves and being unapologetically ourselves.
It talks of difficult and stagnant times coming to an end now, and being inspired by new ideas, rejuvenated creativity and being fertile and fearless with that.
It is The Divine Feminine and everything she represents. Birth, rebirth, new beginnings.
The next card was Gathering Around-The Power of Community. As the name of this card suggests, this is about finding our tribe. Those with the same goals, ideas, dreams or any other common ground. It is the space where we are seen, heard, valued, supported and loved.
I found this reading to be like a “Hell yeah!” for me right now. So much is changing for me currently. My old way of working, the kind of work I've done for 20 years, is falling away and has left a vacuum which has yet to be filled. I have my recent mental health diagnosis and therapy upcoming, and I'm on the waiting list for an ADHD assessment.
I am discovering more and more about ADHD, particularly in women, every day and I can honestly say I have never felt so validated. I am finding more and more women who are either undiagnosed like me, or who have had a diagnosis later on in life.
Not only that, but starting my journey on here and finding community with other writers is really empowering, and has spurred me on to keep writing and sharing.
Add to all of this the fact that I am extending dry January into February and possibly beyond, and a new me really is beginning to emerge and push through, like the first snowdrops of spring. Tentative, but determined.
I was looking through my old notebooks the other day. I have kept them all, and I'm so glad. Reading them is like a retrospective map of my inner travels, and has helped me to piece certain things together where my memory has often failed.
I wrote this piece a while ago, but it couldn't be more relevant to me than right now.
A flitter of flutters
Trip across my inner realm
Pirouetting across my soul
As a new beginning in truth
Manifests itself,
And paints
The vista of my horizons
In all of the magnificence
And joyful abundance
Previously withheld from me.
I walk through new portals
Inviting me to step forward
Into my inner visions
Beckoned forth
Into my reality
By my faith, belief and trust
In our benevolent Universe.
I am released
From the hefty chains
And heavy shackles
Of my own making
As I ascend into
Higher vibrations
Of eternal spirit
As my deep ancestral knowledge
Lovingly guides me
Along my rightful path
Bathed in wondrous new beginnings.
Thank you so much for reading 😊🥰💐🌺🌻🐿
I love the poem you included in this post. Gosh, I would think you were writing about and to me. I am in a new phase of life myself, discovering new things. I taught mostly middle and high school students for 43 years, but retired suddenly in June 2023. I hadn't expected to retire, but with the change of school administration, I found myself not wanting to be in that environment. I have had an empty next for nearly ten years (and still miss the noise and messiness of two boys). I am loving and still adapting to long days of quiet and solitutde. Still, I find those "flitters of flutters" (I love that alliteration!) and experience a sense of restlessness, adventure, exploration, and unease as I find out where this new self will take me.